I’m A Loser….There, I Said It!

Not many people in this world will admit when they are a “loser” or when they are trying to become a “loser”. One of my 2016 goals is to be a “loser”. I know some of you are thinking, “Um, why would you want to be a loser”. The kind of “loser” I am talking about is something to be proud of. I want to be a “loser” of losing some poundage that I no longer want to carry around with me.

What gave me the motivation to want to become “loser” status you ask. Well, take a look at this picture.

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Yes, I’m putting myself out there even though this photo is not something to be proud of. Who is that person looking back at me? That my friends is someone who suffers from PCOS, someone who consumed and injected quite a few fertility medications, someone who is a stress eater, and someone who has put everyone ahead of herself.

My Endocrinologist had been wanting me to start a low carb way of eating for a while. Did I listen to her? Heck to the NO! I wasn’t quite ready to go there just yet. I love food, and I wasn’t ready to give up my favorite stuff. Besides, what would I do if I got stressed out? How could I turn down delicious cake at the events I am at? I’m okay with the way that I am. I am loved no matter what…..

That was all fine and dandy until I started being on the other “side” of the camera. My fellow photographers would snap photos of me when we’d be testing lighting, and I’d see those images come edit time. I wasn’t sure who that person was that I was looking at any longer. How did I let myself get to that point? Yes, PCOS plays a major role in my weight, but I can do something to manage that.

I had been waiting for someone to start the low carb way of eating with me, thinking that I would fail if I didn’t have accountability. I have several online friends who are accountable, but text on a screen can only do so much. After waiting and waiting to get with it, I did it on my terms. My friends who I wanted to start this with me weren’t quite ready yet. I couldn’t make them join me if they weren’t prepared to take the first step with me. I had to decide to just do it or wait for someone else to want to do it with me.

On January 4, 2016, I decided that it was time. No more yummy loaded baked potatoes, no more awesome breakfast tacos, no more cake, candy, ice cream, chips, fried food, and no more Chick-fil-A sandwiches and yummy waffle fries. What would I eat, just salads, stuff I don’t even like? Nope, that wasn’t the deal. I found that I could eat eggs, cheese, pickles, steak, chicken, pork chops, fish, pork rinds, and yummy things that had lots of protein, low carbs (if any), and low sugar. After contemplating it for a while, I realized that this was something that I could do, on my own, without waiting for anyone to join me. The time to start was NOW! No more excuses!!!

I joined quite a few Facebook pages for this “new” way of eating. These “supporters” post so many recipes, encouraging stories and photos, and they offer great advice. There are many women who suffer from PCOS on these forums. This way of eating has been the best thing they’ve ever done for themselves. I feel that I can connect with quite a few of the people in these groups even though we’ve never met in person.

So now, I’m one of those people who reads labels at the grocery store, log in every single thing that I put in my mouth via MyFitnessPal, use a food scale to weigh my food, and a person who brings her own food to an event just in case there is food that is “not friendly” to my way of eating. Sounds like a lot of work, right? Yeah, I used to think the same thing. It really isn’t a lot of work. It has become part of my routine.

I have not had any problems turning down food that I used to love. It doesn’t even bother me to see others eating those foods either. Honestly, I feel great, I have more energy, and I can see changes in my body that other people may not be able to see yet.

Here I am 56 days on this new way of eating. My clothes are sagging, and my face is taking on a new look.

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I was really excited to jump on the scale this morning to see that I hit my first goal. I’ve lost a total of 25.8 pounds. Do you know what 25 pounds of fat looks like? Yeah, I didn’t either. Let me show you………

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So the globs of the yellowish/orangish stuff in both pictures is now gone! I’ve lost 5 bricks. Think about how much lighter my body feels after dropping those bricks. Crazy, huh? Seeing these photos puts things into perspective. I do not want those 5 bricks back, nor do I want those globs of fat back either!

Can I continue to do this until I hit my final goal? I’m going to say YES, I CAN! Have I ever had thoughts of having a cheat day, um YES, but have I, NO!!!! This way of eating has become a part of who I am. I don’t force it on others. I’m doing this for me! Okay, I’m doing it for my kids as well because I want to be here for them!

So, if you’re on the fence about starting something new, really think about it, and do it when you are ready. If you’re not ready, you may not succeed in reaching your goals. Trust me, take it from someone who had people wanting to help me, but refused their help. You’ll know when you’re ready!!!!

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