When God Aligns the Stars, Planets, and Ducks, and Flashes All The Neon Signs

2017 has been a year of change for me. I’ve taken control of my health, and I now do things and eat things that I said I never would. Lots of my every day supporters know how many blessings I have received this year, and it isn’t even over just yet.

My close family and close friends have been told, so it is time to share with the rest of you. After 13 years of my career at Thomas, Feldman & Wilshusen, L.L.P. in Dallas, I have resigned from my Legal Assistant Position. My last day at the Firm will be on Friday, September 1, 2017.

I have accepted a position at a reputable Firm in McKinney. My new career journey with The Burress Snellings Law Firm PLLC begins on September 5, 2017. The area of law that they practice in was my favorite back in the day, and I cannot wait to jump back in.

While I was super nervous and scared to leave my work family at TF&W, I took the leap of faith by accepting the position in McKinney. God planned this. He aligned everything for me, and all I had to do was show my faith in His plans for me. There were just too many positive things to walk away from. It was one of those situations where I wasn’t looking for a job, it just presented itself, and everything fell into place.

Exciting things are happening for me. I know this is one of the best moves for me and my family. They are all super excited, and I cannot wait to travel this journey in my life. I have chosen to dance and not sit out on this amazing opportunity. I Hope You Dance – By Lee Ann Womack was the 1st song that I heard getting back into my car after my interview. I believe that was another sign coming from the Heavens.

Goodbye to my TF&W family. Many memories were made, many tears were shed, many late night hours burned. It has been a pleasure and an honor working for you. I appreciate all the kindness you have expressed to me over the past 13 years. I have grown a lot as a Legal Assistant and a person. I wish you nothing but success and growth in the years to come.



The ONLY Fat Blocker is ME – My ALMOST 300 Pound Life Transformation

Yeah, you read that correctly. I’m not gonna lie. My heaviest weight was almost a whopping 300 pounds. I will never forget the morning I weighed in only to see that number on the scale staring back at me. It took all I had in me not to break down and cry right then and there. I couldn’t do that though, as I still needed to get ready for the day, get the girls ready for school, prepare breakfast and lunches, drive to the school, and then drive in crazy traffic to get to work. The whole time I was doing everything, that number haunted my mind. How could I let things get so out of control? When did I stop caring about me?

I just want everyone to know that I DID NOT gain that weight from making poor food choices alone. My PCOS added on quite a bit of weight. Me NOT being active literally weighed in on that, and me sitting all day long at my desk didn’t help matters either. I was eating horribly on road trips when I had to travel for events. I would eat late after work or events because that was the only time I had a chance to eat, and I was too hungry to skip dinner. Mind you, I didn’t always have a “real meal” to eat. I’d grab whatever was in the pantry to put some food in my body. Skipping meals isn’t a healthy option either, regardless of what people think.

So, here I am, a totally different person than I was then. The photo on the left was September 2015 (not even my heaviest weight), and the photo on the right was April 2017. HUGE difference! No pun intended…..

Transformation Tuesday 04-11-17

I sometimes cannot see the “big picture” of my weight loss journey until I see side by side images such as these. Let’s face it, I see my body every day when I look in the mirror. I do see transformation, but I also see the saggy, wrinkly skin from the journey. While I know I have lost 150+ pounds, sometimes what I see in the mirror sure does not make me feel like I have lost anything.

There are several contributors to my weight loss success. First and foremost, God’s grace. I know that He has been with me every step of the journey, giving me the strength, courage, and energy to face everything along the way. Secondly, Low Carb is key! Tracking everything I eat has put things into perspective as to what food choices I make. When you see it all out there in front of you, it is an eye opener. Thirdly, you have to keep moving. I don’t care if it is just walking for 10 minutes every hour. For the first couple of months on my journey, I just watched what I ate. Then, I added in some basic weight and strength training that I would do at home. I didn’t go to a gym to get my workouts done. I did create a workout group with some friends to have the accountability of keeping me on track with my workouts. Those women are awesome friends to have. It’s like we were working out together, but we weren’t. LOL I will write about my running and training journey in another blog. They deserve their own entry!

If there is any doubt in your mind about wanting to take control of your weight/health, but are scared to take that first step or think you won’t succeed at it, use me to prove that you have it in you to accomplish your goals.  You cannot just sit there waiting for something to happen. You have to take control of the situation and show it who is boss. Own up to what needs to be done. You are the only one holding you back from being all that you can be! I will be cheering you on every step of your journey!

I Put on My BIG Girl Pants Tonight

You always hear people say that “you just need to put on your big girl pants” for certain situations, right? Well tonight was a time when I needed to do just that. You see, all of my “smaller” pants and skirts have been falling off me, and I was starting to have to use safety pins to hold them up. I decided that it was time to buy new pants that would stay up all on their own. 

Walking to the clothing section I immediately went towards the Plus-Size department.  After shifting a few hangers around, I realized that I needed to go to the “other” department with smaller sizes. Before I did that, I shifted hangers around again and looked at tags because I knew my size was on the plus racks, it had to be. Sigh, those won’t fit. I walked over to the other rack. I knew my smallest size is way too big, so I grabbed 2 different sizes and headed to the fitting room.

Not really paying attention to the size I reached for first, I was able to pull the pants on with no problem.  Buttoned them and zipped them up without having to suck anything in. I looked at the size of the pants, and I wanted to shout out with excitement,  but I remembered that I was in a public place so I smiled big instead.  LOL Let’s just say that I’m 16 whole pant sizes, or if you want to count by 2’s, 8 sizes smaller from where I was when I started low carb,  high protein on January 4, 2016.

When I got home, I immediately went into my closet to pull out my most favorite pair of Big Girl Pants. I layer them on the bed, and then I placed the new ones on top. While there is a noticeable difference, this photo does not show the true difference in sizes.

I then thought to myself that I needed to put my Big Girl Pants on to see just how far I’ve come in a year. To my surprise,  I fit into one pant leg. I have enough room to share them with a friend. I was having to hold these tight so they wouldn’t fall.

Wow, these were my pants I’d wear to all my photography gigs because they were comfortable.  They were my “go to” work pants because they were dressy and stretchy. 

There’s no way I could wear them anywhere at this point without people wondering what was up. I don’t think safety pins or a belt would do the trick.

I’m not quite at my goal weight, but I’m almost there.  I’ve lost 141 pounds from January 4, 2016 to February 2, 2017. To meet my goal weight, I have about 11 more pounds to lose.

I’m a work in progress,  but I’m also living proof that you can lose the weight if you set your mind to it and give it 100%. You have to believe in yourself that you’ve got what it takes to accomplish your goal, and it will happen. 

Thank you to everyone who has supported me along the way, and those that have given me words of encouragement. Thank you to those who have stood by my side during this transformation.  I couldn’t have done any of it without you!

9 Months and 125 Pounds Later….

A full-term pregnancy lasts 9 months. During that time, a woman’s body goes thru so many changes both internal and external .  When I was pregnant with my kids, my body took a while to change on the outside. It wasn’t obvious that I was pregnant . I just looked like I was fat and had a squishy belly. During each of my pregnancies,  I gained about 28 pounds . I was so proud of myself for not gaining a gazillion pounds because those 20+ pounds wouldn’t be hard to lose, or so I thought. Up until recently ,  I was still carrying around the “baby weight” from my 2010/2011 pregnancy ,  and then some. Due to my PCOS, I gained so much weight, and I kept finding every excuse in the book not to do something about it.

There was a time when I wouldn’t even step foot on a scale because I was afraid of the number that was going to flash up on the screen. If I’d go to the Doctor , I’d be in denial about my weight, and I would tell myself that my clothes and shoes surely added 5 to 6 pounds. If my appointment was at the end of the day, I’d throw that factor into the mix. The number on the scale wouldn’t phase me because in my head, it was inaccurate. Flash forward to the end of December 2015 when I saw myself in pictures that someone had taken of me. Yes, I had seen myself in photos before then, but there weren’t many, and I really never took a good look at them. I was always on the opposite side of the camera to avoid anyone seeing the overweight person that I was.

That was one of the eye openers for me. Regardless of how many times I heard my Doctors talk to me about weight loss for my own good, nothing “spoke to me” as the photos did. I then braved the whole getting up on the scale thing. I couldn’t believe that number that was flashing back at me. It was the highest weight I had ever seen for myself . Was it right? How did I get to that number? I knew right then and there that this had to stop. I didn’t want to get to the next higher up three digit number series. Mind you, I wasn’t feeling bad at my “high” weight, nor was I experiencing any medical issues that were not PCOS related.

I had seen some before and after photos of people who had done low carb, high protein . All the Doctors that had mentioned weight loss to me had told me to go low carb. I did minimal research, and jumped right in to the low carb way of eating. I didn’t carb load or anything before getting started. I just said, “hey, this is starting NOW”! Here I am today, still sticking with it.

So, it will be 9 months of my lifestyle change tomorrow, November 4th. Much like a woman’s body changing during the 9 months of a pregnancy, my body has taken a major change. Guess what? It did take people a while to notice this change as well.

I have  gone from wearing a 3xl shirt/dress,  to wearing large/medium. In pants/skirts, I’ve gone down 12 sizes. We won’t even discuss bra sizes. LOL Just know that it too has changed drastically. Oh, and one of my biggest accomplishments presented itself to me today when I didn’t have to ask for a seat belt extender on the plane. It has quite a bit of slack to it.

It is the little things like this that help me to realize how far I have come in my journey.

If you’re wondering what “number” I am at now for pounds lost, the answer is 125 pounds! I’m still not at my overall goal, but I’m a lot closer to it now than I was 9 months ago.

Thank you to those who have supported me on this journey. Thank you for the words of encouragement. I can’t tell you how much it has helped me stay focused.

Nike’s Dri Fit Be Strong Capris

Today I went to the Nike Outlet Store. I decided to go there to buy some workout pants/spanx since nothing I own at the moment fits the right way. Plus, I wanted to try some stuff on to find out what size I wore in case I ever wanted to purchase anything on their website.

I ended up buying 1 pair of “training” capris, 2 pairs of running capris, and 1 shirt. Since I now know how this stuff feels while working out, I plan on going back to get a few more items.

Instead of posting just pictures of my purchases, I decided that I would do video reviews of my workout gear so that people could hear my words. 🙂

My first review today is of the Be Strong Dri Fit Capris. I got some black ones. They are really comfortable and soft. Man, my feet look really big….Haha!


At first, I was skeptical to purchase them. I was afraid that they would be too tight, but they went up with no problem, and I wasn’t spilling out of them or anything like that.

To view my video review, click HERE to be redirected to my YouTube channel.

These capris really do hold in the moisture as you workout. You can’t feel or smell the sweat until you take the pants off. LOL They work really well to keep you dry.

I recommend these to anyone who needs new workout gear. They definitely do what the labels say they do, and they are really comfortable.

Until my next blog and/or review…..


BLC 6 is Over

I have been participating in a Biggest Loser Competition with some of the Mommies in my January 2011 group. We started the competition on April 25th, and today was our last weigh-in.

This was the first time that I completed a BLC from start to finish and gave it 100% effort. Usually, I’d give up right at the beginning, take passes, not post body/scale pics, and I’d drop out. I’m excited to say that I was in the top 3 spots throughout the entire challenge. I’ve been able to hold onto the number 1 spot over the past few weeks. I’m anxiously awaiting the final chart post to see how I did!!

On the first day of the competition, we had to set a personal weight loss goal for ourselves. While my goal seemed a little far fetched, I was able to accomplish it!! I lost 32.4 pounds, which is a weight loss percentage of 13.94%. I was so excited to see the scale this morning. I honestly didn’t think I could reach the number that I was looking for.

The ladies in my group are awesome! We all helped each other get thru the competition. I compared my intro pictures to my pictures today, and I can see the difference. I’m still a work in progress, but I’m on my way…….

30, 44, and Losing Part of Me

You’re probably wondering what the subject of this post is all about. Well, I will explain it all now. It’s probably not as exciting as you’d like for it to be!

30 – That’s how many pounds I am down now. Some of it has come off quickly, while some has taken it’s time. I’m excited about what’s been lost, and I can’t wait until I lose more. I know the process is slow, and it takes more time to take it off than it does to put it on, but I’m ready to hit another milestone in this journey. Baby steps to the finish line!  Thank you to all of you who are by my side, supporting me along the way!

44 – That’s how old I turned today. I don’t feel my age. I feel younger. I remember when I used to think 40 was old. I didn’t really dread my 40th birthday or cry over it. I didn’t feel like I was really going to be in my 40’s at that time. It’s hard for me to sometimes believe that I am the age that I am. Being in my 40’s isn’t bad at all. Yes, metabolism and other things have changed, but it is all part of becoming older and more mature. At least that’s what I keep telling myself! 🙂 Today I was told, “just wait until you’re in your 50’s, it doesn’t get any better.” Haha! I don’t even want to know what will happen then. For now, I’m going to enjoy my 44th year of life that God has given me. I know I will learn more than I already know, I will give my best,  and I know that I will experience things that I never have as well. I know that some of you don’t believe that I am 44 because you think I am younger, but I promise you, I was born in 1972!!!!

Losing part of me – Well, see, what happened was….. I had a minor medical procedure yesterday. I had a cyst under my right shoulder blade for as long as I can remember. It ruptured once, but it came back. I consulted with a surgeon a couple of weeks ago because it had gotten bigger and it had started to hurt. He agreed that it needed to be removed. So, I had my procedure with him yesterday morning. I was awake during the whole thing, and I did feel some pain. I let him know when I could feel what he was doing, and he’d inject more stuff into my back. It took a little longer than he anticipated for the removal, and it was bigger than what he thought. For some reason, when I have surgery, that seems to be the story of my life…always more than the Doctors/Surgeon had expected. I wanted to see the cyst, as he took it out as a whole, but it wasn’t anywhere to be seen when I was finally able to get up, move around, and look around. Yes, I’m weird like that. That stuff fascinates me. For some reason, I felt the urge to cry after the procedure was over and I was walking out to my car. I don’t know if it is because something that had been a part of me was gone after all of these years or if my body was just going through emotions from the procedure. I did manage to hold back the tears, but they were right there had I let them flow.

So, that’s it! Thank you to all of you who take the time to read my blog!! ❤

2015 Year in Review or Something Like That

Hi, it’s me! I know it’s been a while, but I’m back. I didn’t think I was going to write a “year in review” type blog entry, but Mr. M to da Z mentioned to me today that I should. So, here is my attempt at talking about the highlights/lowlights of 2015. I hope you have plenty of hot chocolate and popcorn to enjoy as you read this. Make yourself comfy because it is kinda long!

January came and went very fast. RyRy turned 4. How is that even possible? Wasn’t she just born? We ended the month with adding Black Beauty (a new Ford F-150) to our family. She is shiny (metallic black). I still can’t get used to driving her because I think in the time that she’s been part of the family, I have driven her maybe 5 or 6 times.

February is a blur to me. I had sinus surgery. When my ENT told me about the procedure, she told me that I could come out of the surgery center looking like I went one or two rounds with Mike Tyson. I was afraid to look at myself in the mirror for the first time before I was released. I sent a picture to my neighbor. She told me that I looked very “California” with the tape/bandage on my nose. LOL Guess that’s a good thing. Luckily for me, I had no bruising.

March – I was so excited for March, as it is my birthday month. I thought for sure it was going to be a fun month. Unfortunately, my month didn’t go as planned. One Friday, I walked out of my office, thru the parking lot, and got into my vehicle. When I started my vehicle, it was very loud, and it vibrated from the sound. I turned it off and turned it back on again thinking that it was going to be different, but it wasn’t. Come to find out, someone stole the catalytic converter off my Honda Element. It was not a cheap replacement even with insurance paying a majority of it. Talk about an unexpected expense due to someone else’s doing. I learned that this is a common thing, but I had never heard of it before that day. It takes about a minute for thieves to cut it off and drive away. There was a plus to the month, we welcomed 2 new members to our family (bunnies). They were super cute, and the girls love holding them and watching them jump around.

April – We enjoyed Easter with the girls. They wore beautiful dresses, and they found lots of eggs. We read the story of Jesus’ resurrection.

May – I wore a heart monitor for most the of the month of April and May. I had an abnormal EKG when I had my surgery in February, and then I had another abnormal one when I met with the heart specialist. He had me wear a heart monitor, and I also had an echocardiogram done. Thank God everything came back normal.

June -The girls got out of school for the Summer. They were both sad that school was over for the year, as they both enjoyed their teachers and friends very much. I had my 6 month mammogram diagnostic exam. Things still need to be monitored, but so far, nothing has changed. They just want to make sure it stays that way. I also had an MRI of my left ankle/foot. It kept hurting me, would get swollen, and I could hardly walk on it. Come to find out, I had/have 6 torn ligaments. Sigh….Ain’t nobody got time for that.

July – Tim had to go to California for work. The girls and I got lucky and were able to tag along. I FINALLY got to meet Karalayne. She and I have been friends for about 8 or 9 years. We met on Fertile Thoughts, and we have been friends ever since. I was excited to finally get to meet her and her family. The girls and I spent time with her and her kiddos during the day while Tim was working. The girls were so sad when we spent the last day with them. They are ready to go back for a visit to go see their friends. I got to scratch one of my bucket list items off. I saw the HOLLYWOOD sign in person! YAY! I also got to stand outside of Eva Longoria’s restaurant – Beso. It was too early in the day for her to be there. I’d like to go back and eat there one day. We went to Venice Beach…..talk about a great place to go for people watching. So much to see there! Santa Monica Pier was fun as well. We got to watch a firework show. Overall, it was a fun trip. RyRy has decided that she wants to move to California when she turns 18. CJ tells her that she’s going to need to find a job to make money to live there. LOL My CJ turned 7. She’s growing up way too fast. I wish we could pause time. Had to get an MRI of my right ankle after our trip to Cali. The front part of my ankle was super swollen and tender.  I somehow tore an anterior tendon. Yay me….how does that even happen?

August – Hank and his family came into town the last week of July, and were in Texas until the first week of August. Hank and his family, Matt his family, and me and the girls all went to Corpus Christi to spend time with our parents. It had been way too long since we were all under one roof. Us kiddos enjoyed some beach time together on the last night we were there. The kids had fun in the water, but us grownups didn’t want to see if jaws would make an appearance when it started to get dark. LOL The girls went back to school after a nice and relaxing Summer.

September – I got the opportunity to travel back to a part of South Texas where I lived back in the day. The town looked so different. Everything is different now. It’s no longer a sleepy little town. It was kind of back to see part of “my history” change so much from when I left it. I guess that goes to show that things are forever changing, and nothing ever stays the same.

October – We got lots of rain throughout the month. The storms were very loud and scary. Halloween was fun. The kiddos enjoyed trick-or-treating. We didn’t have as many trick-or-treaters as usual. I’m guessing since Halloween fell on a Saturday, there were lots of parties, and organizations had things going on for their members.

November – Thanks to our wonderful neighbors, I got to experience an Evanescence concert VIP style. I must admit that I was unsure what to expect since it was a “rocker” type band and not something I have experienced before. I met some cool people, and I will be forever grateful for that night.  Thanksgiving is made to be spent with family and friends. We invited some “new to America” friends to our house for the festivities. It was their 1st Thanksgiving ever. I believe they enjoyed it, and we were blessed to have them join us. My parents came to town to celebrate with us as well. I love spending holidays with my family, and I cherish those moments with them.

December – December is supposed to be filled with laughter and cheer. The Grinch decided to visit us the week before Christmas, and he stole our Star Shower Lights. The girls were very upset about it. I can’t believe that people are brave enough to walk into someone’s yard and take their stuff. People have major balls that’s for sure!! Christmas was exciting. Santa was very good to the girls. I caught him in action when he came to visit our house. The girls enjoyed seeing the photos I snapped of him when he stopped by.  We met a new family in our subdivision. They have a daughter who will be attending our elementary school, and she is in 2nd grade like CJ. I believe they hit it off pretty good. I’m excited to get to know her and her family better as time goes on.

Besides never ending soccer for both girls, and always having somewhere we needed to be, we survived 2015!!!! Thank you Jesus!!!!

2015 Was a great year for me overall. I am a very blessed individual whom is grateful for all the blessings bestowed upon me!! I spent time with family and friends, and I’ve made some new friends along the way. Some family and friends have stepped out of my life for reasons unknown to me. I’ve tried to communicate with several of them, but my attempts didn’t get any type of response. I cannot make anyone want to be a part of my life, but if I know that I did nothing to make them not want to be in it, I have to question myself what went wrong. While everyone says to just let it go and move forward, it is very hard for me to do that.

I have come to realize that I am not Wonder Woman, and I cannot do everything that I’d like to do. There are just not enough hours in the day to get it all done. In 2016, I need to learn how to balance things better, and I need to learn how to say “no” more, and I need to occasionally ask for help. That is so hard for me to do, but I’m going to do my best to do it more in 2016.

There is so much that I’m going to work on in 2016. I have so many personal things that I want to change to better myself, and I have to be the one to make it happen. I need to get back into church, and I need to get back into the word. That is one of my biggest goals for 2016. I’ve ventured away for way too long, and it’s time to find my way back.

So there you have it, a glimpse into my 2015. Tonight I will ring in the new year in my pajamas, possibly watching Netflix, and just relaxing. This girl has no energy to do much of anything else.

Thanks for reading! I know it’s long!!


HELLO……IT’S ME!!!!!!!

Well, I haven’t been blogging every day like I thought I would or thought I should. Man, it’s been such a long time. I need to get back on the ball with writing. Writing does cleanse the soul. Wait, I think music cleanses my soul, but writing is pretty therapeutic to me.

Life has been crazy, busy as usual, but I don’t mind it one bit. I could use one day of doing absolutely nothing, but that’s not gonna happen! LOL

I haven’t focused any on my weight loss journey. I really do need to step to it! It’s not going to happen on its own! Right? Right! I just need more hours in the day to fit everything in. I really and truly want it to happen. I’m just so tired at the end of the day by the time everything gets done and the girls go to sleep. I am going to get on board and make something happen.

I also am going to get back to blogging. My blog entries may not be all about losing weight, but I will keep everyone entertained. 🙂

I didn’t get a chance to watch any of My Big Fat Fabulous Life on TLC, but I’m glad that PCOS is being “introduced” to so many who don’t know anything about it. I’m hoping to be able to watch the series on demand. I’ve read that there are quite a few negative comments made to this young woman regarding her weight and appearance. Society is horrible. Those bullies need to back off and leave her alone. I don’t understand what our World is coming to.

Hope all of you are doing well! Take care……. God Bless!!

So Many Irons In The Fire

Ever wonder how different your life would be if you took out a thing or two out of your life? For instance, if you didn’t let your kids do any extracurricular type things, your Saturdays would be freed up, and you wouldn’t have to worry about practices during the week. What would you do with that time? Would you take that time to just catch up on everything else or would you find another busy activity to fill in that time slot?

Life is crazy busy! Every now and then I go over my mental to do list to make sure I haven’t dropped the ball on something. In the mornings when I’m taking the girls to school, I sometimes have to replay the morning in my mind to make sure I’ve packed CJ’s lunch and snack, and that I gave CJ and Ry their Singulair. I’ve talked myself thru it a time or two, and the girls have asked me what I’m talking about. LOL I wouldn’t say this happens because I’m getting older. I blame it on keeping a busy schedule and always multitasking when doing things.

Right now as I’m typing this, I’m texting with the bestie, commenting on comments on my Facebook status, chatting with a friend or two on Facebook, thinking of a project that I’m working on, playing with the girls, mentally picking out their clothes for school tomorrow, and going over my mental calendar on things that are coming up. Whew, that’s a lot to do all at once. I think there needs to be more than one of me at times. I’m sure that there’s plenty more going on in my mind and on my agenda that I haven’t mentioned. It’ll all come to me while I’m laying in bed trying to sleep tonight. I know I’m not the only one who thinks of everything going on when it’s bed time. Hello insomnia! Who invited you to this party?

I need to squeeze in a South Texas visit with the family. Then I need to squeeze in some time to see the family in West Texas. Oh, let’s not forget about spending time with my brother who lives 7 minutes from me who I never see because our schedules are so busy. Wait, then there’s my brother who lives in another State. I’m trying to figure out when I can fly out to visit with him and his family. Does anyone have a private jet they’d like to let me use so I can do all of this? Pretty please…… I promise to return it with a full tank of fuel.

I’m pretty sure I’m going to take on a few extra tasks before the end of the week.  have set some personal deadlines for myself to get some business type stuff done before Friday.

I need some workout time somewhere, and I’m hoping to find some. If I can’t workout during the week, there’s always water aerobics on Saturday. Who wants to come with me? Anyone??????